While I was walking around like a zombie I cried out to God. He answered in a most peculiar way. I started attending the Boston church of Christ, they were a very strict and demanding church that believed in the power of our self instead of the power of god. I was in the church for almost 2 years but suffered greatly because I couldn't stop masturbating. Not long after I met my wife. We met over a telephone date line. We talked for almost 2 weeks before we met and i knew she was the one that i knew I'd marry.

I have not had an easy life. When I got out of jail I met a girl who quickly moved in with me and she was already pregnant with another guys baby. I was loyal and worked as hard as i could for her. We were together for two years and had a child together. The baby was lost to the state because we were young and stupid. She had a drug problem and was cheating on me. I tried my best but the constantly fighting both physical and mental put a drain on our love and ability to raise a child. After the baby was taken away from me I lost my mind and walked the world like a zombie.